sleep

if you do the math, humans spend a third of their lives sleeping. with the hundred billion people that have been on this planet, a third may have just not even lived in terms of productivity if the rest were able to function constantly with no rest. ive kept this thought for a while, which is why i try my best to function past exhaustion. sometimes i dont of course, but its situational. "ive been doing meth like a soldier," taking stimulants to maintain awareness as well. but i love sleep, i can sleep with no breaks in between. its a vice of mine, sleeping like theres no end sometimes. though what am i at the end of all that then? ive been functionally dead for the countless hours ive spent unconscious. although, i do enjoy that i can talk about my dreams to someone now, theyve always been interesting to me but the topic wasnt as stressed as it is like now before. because of this, i think i dream more. i look forward to dreaming as its an avenue to cultivate discussion in a way, so its a sort of middle ground for the unproductive time i spend sleeping. my gf doesnt like it when i sleep too much as it eats up time i can spend with her conscious. ive said that im patient and fine with doing nothing or sleeping with her because it gives me a sense of security, keeps me less worried. but thats unfair to her to be selfish like that haha. its also funny that i get very comfortable in whatever situation im in, i can sleep anywhere, in anything, filthy or pristine. ive drowsed off and slept on random peoples shoulders, ive slept on benches, the ground, right after puking, in jeans and shoes on at home, and im confident to say that i look peaceful throughout. i dont snore luckily, but i do groan, something i couldve guessed. my gf has pictures of me sleeping very peacefully in someone elses bed, its funny. i believe im very flexible in sleep which is why i can sleep anywhere. shes brought up the fact that "guys can just wake up and do stuff" which is unverifiable in a way but it makes sense. i think if there was imminent danger id still sleep. after all, i can just get ready and be on my toes like when i had luggage that i brought over to hers and just got up and left.